Why does it seem that once you say yes to God things get harder? Honestly, I think it’s because they do. But only because now the things you do and the things you are striving to accomplish have a Kingdom purpose behind them and the devil hates that. The last few months have been extremely challenging. I’ve received heartbreaking news, faced old wounds that I thought were healed, stress was all I knew and I just found myself completely broken...again.

 A part of me really wanted to believe that once God was the center of my life that the brokenness was going to be over, but that is just not the case.What I have learned, however, is that the brokenness now has a place to go.

Psalm 34:18 says “The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit”.

I found myself digging a lot deeper and holding on to those first three words, “The Lord is close”. The healing is not instant. Those hardships don’t disappear, but I can find comfort that through those times, the King is close to me—He chooses to be close to me and that’s enough. I take comfort in knowing that I can be broken in His presence. 

My favorite part is that while I’m broken, I’m invited by God to cling to the promise that we are not citizens of this earth but of Heaven and that one day all we will do is worship the only One worthy.